I began this blog by saying:  “Life is so very, very full right now…  I’m aware of this full feeling every waking moment.”  I’m thinking that, by now, you may be seeing why!?  We’ve been traveling for the last couple weeks and so blogging was logistically less likely, but also I have to say that it’s hard to narrow in on a munchable set of topics!

I do feel full up most all the time and that’s not a bad thing.   It’s usually a feeling of awareness and emotion and…well…life!  And it makes me take notice of small moments and feel truly present in my surroundings and with my friends and family.  Of course, it also dovetails interestingly with the fact that I am more emotional now than I have ever been – so I do get leaky much more often.  What I am wondering about lately is how this full feeling will go with my quite-often-crazy schedule.

First, I’m wanting very much to create a different feel about my schedule right off the bat.  I’m trying to construct teaching and working schedules that don’t have me running just to get through them and I’m trying to separate work time from down time in a way that I have not in recent years.  I also want to have more patterns and habits (for food, exercise, housework, etc) that settle into something reliable, healthy and comfortable.

Mostly, though, I want my mentality to reflect this new perspective regardless of busy days or light days.  I don’t want to run and stress and worry and fix.  I recently had a small thought – what if part of “my thing” – my competency, success/failure, fool the world into seeing me a certain way thing – was also the driver to how busy I keep myself?  Is that part of not turning and facing various realities?  Right now, I feel like there isn’t anything that I don’t want to face and spend time with.  And, no matter if I’m facing big or trivial, hard, wonderful, weird, whatever…I’d like to do that with the initial platform of saying that everyone and everything is going along just fine in the big picture.

So, that should clear the way for small and big blogs, right?  Maybe one day, I should just put the list of heavier topics aside and tell you about Cheese Weasel or shopping or the dogs!  Of course, all those things wouldn’t stay small topics either!  Well, maybe the dogs…

For now – thank you all for the responses that I (and we) have received from the last posting.  It was both a relief and a nervous moment to put it out there and, once again, my community has (so far) responded they way I have hoped for.  And, with that, I must go pick up N. for her 3-month check-in with the Whitman Walker physician (our first since she started the HRT) and then another laser hair removal treatment…let’s hope it’s not as painful as the last two!  These are the things that are in our lives just now and it’s wonderful to be able to include them here!